Monday, July 30, 2007

The Delay...

I wake up this morning and go about my usual morning routine. Go to the computer. Check and respond to e-mails. Make breakfast. Then write. And while I do my usual work routine, I'm usually waiting on something. Waiting on a call back. Waiting on an e-mail. Waiting on an audition. Something. And in that time, it's easy to get down on yourself.

But a funny thing happened. I was just about to send off an e-mail to someone pertaining to my career, and my sister called out of the blue. She says "What's up lil' bro. Who's bothering you?" I said "what? What do you mean?" She says "Somebody's been aggravating you or something. You've been in my thoughts a lot lately". My sister has this very unique ability to really be in tune with other people. Especially her family. So I asked her "Does the industry in general count? Cause I'm aggravated about that right about now". She goes on to tell me that while I'm waiting, remember that The delay does not equal defeat. It equals development.

That was the sermon that her pastor preached last sunday at church. She said that when we're waiting on something (the delay) we automatically assume that we're defeated. We say to ourselves "I've done what I'm supposed to do, I did this, that and that...and I'm still not where I thought I'd be". But in that time, we're just developing. We're preparing for that next step. Things may not happen exactly when WE want them to happen, but when they're SUPPOSED to happen.

And I was just about a second away from clicking 'send' on my e-mail. But I thought that was very interesting and inspiring. We're not defeated. We're developing.

J Lee

"J Lee in the house, ya'll seen flyers"

Friday, July 27, 2007


I absolutely HATE sprint wireless service. I woke up today, early, refreshed...ready to get my day started but sprint had to go and s*** on it. I decided to do a follow up call concerning my plan which I recently changed, and let me tell you, if sprint was a person, I'd beat his ass. I was on the phone for over 2 and 1/2 hours, cleaning up the mess that another sprint employee made a week ago. So in total, over 4 hours of my life has been s*** away by Sprint and it's dumb ass employees.

I mean, flat out lies too. "Yes Mr. Lee, we can offer you a preferred rate and plan of blah blah blah". I say "Wow, that's great. Sounds wonderful. Excellent news!" Then when I call back a week later to make sure they didn't screw it up, another dummy tells me "No Mr. Lee, we don't offer that". And then I say, "well, another one of your dumb ass employees told me that you do." Which they reply only by saying "sorry, Mr. Lee." And then I say, "what the f*** am I gonna do with a sorry?" She says "Excuse me. I don't know what you mean". I say, "B****, what I'm saying is that your apology doesn't do s*** for me. I want what was offered". 2 and 1/2 hours later, I'm mad, my morning is shot, and I end up ON THE SAME DAMN PLAN THAT I HAD FROM THE BEGINNING!!!!

I'm telling you, I haven't been this mad in a loooong time. Pissin me off. Now I gotta try to salvage my Friday and the rest of my weekend. I'm 'bout to watch Judge Mathis.


F*** Sprint. Yeah, I said it.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Staying Focused

My mom used to tell me 'focus on your mission, not your position'. What this means is, focus on exactly what you're trying to do without getting distracted by what others are doing. Now that's probably one of the hardest things you could ask of an actor. We are in a field where you have nothing BUT time and opportunity to compare yourself to this person and to that person. In a career where every 100,000 actor you have, only 50 of them are considered 'stars', it's natural to want to be one of those stars.

My suggestion is to just stay dilligent. It may not feel like you're getting far, fast enough, but you'll get there. ( don't know if I'm writing this blog for my readers or myself lol)

Mother Teresa was once asked why people lose their spiritual passion. She replied simply, "Distractions".
Jesus said "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God" (Luke 9:62) So keep working hard and eventually, it will pay off. Don't get bogged down with the results

Now, all I have to do is take my own advice. Easier said than done...

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On another note, we had a photo shoot for the film I wrote '818'. Here's a photo with the partial cast. From left to right - Isaih Williams, Cory Hardrict, Michael B Jordan, Arlen Escarpeta, and J Lee.

Friday, July 13, 2007

Broke as a joke?

Isn't this saying an oxymoron? Broke as a joke? What's funny about being broke? That's not funny at all actually. Now that I think about it, that makes me feel the opposite of how a joke is supposed to make me feel. I don't like that.

My account sucks right now. But that's okay. My turn's coming.


"Name still buzzin' even when I'm doin' nothin,
but I'm never doin' nothin' 'cause I'm always gettin' money
That's simple jackass and if you don't get it, you're a dummy"
-Lil Weezy

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Beautiful Weekend

Ahhh....just had a beautiful weekend in Chicago. One of my close friends got married in Chicago. It was a huge traditional Indian wedding and I was honestly honored to be a part of it. There were over 750 people there, all just to wish my boy Badal and his wife Sonia blessings and well wishes.

It was also great to see so many people there to support one family. I've got plenty of feelings on this and how this relates to my Black people...but I'll get to that in another blog. I just got home from the airport and ya boy is tired. But as a people, they support each other, they love each other, and they are there for each other. It was a beuaitul thing.

Anyway...I'm about to take a quick nap and rest. Them Indians like to PARTY boy. lol

Badal and Sonia...congrats!! Thanks for letting me be a part of such a wonderful day for you two and I'll never forget it.

Peace, Love, and Nappiness.



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