Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

One of those days

Yeah folks. I've officially had one of those days. Not really a bad day, but just not even close to a good one. I'm annoyed, tired, and the St. Louis Cardinals are losing .

I'm the kind of person who always has to be doing something. If I don't, I feel like I'm not giving my all. Always writing, always finding ways to advance my career, always on the go go go go go. And today, in the midst of all my going and wondering and wishing and planning and hoping, I forgot to smile. I forgot to enjoy my day. I'm always like...things will happen when they're supposed to happen. But today I kinda forgot that and I let LA wear down on me.

If you're a part of this industry, you know what I'm talking about. This industry will try to get to you. You're either too busy or not busy enough. You are constantly looking for the next thing. Nobody comes out to LA to be the 175th greatest actor of all time. Or to get their project picked up and taken straight to DVD. People come out here with big hopes and dreams. To be the best. The reality of it is, that a lot of people will never get to that level of satisfaction. Not happiness, but satisfaction. Because you always want more. Same thing in sports, business, life. Most people want more. People are getting on Terrell Owens' case because he is trying to re-work his contract. He wants more. Some people would be happy with a seven-year, $48.97 million deal. But he wants more. And why not? People are getting that kind of money, why can't he? The owners of these football teams are bringing in HUNDREDS of MILLIONS. Nobody renegotiates those contracts. I'VE DIGRESSED!!

My point is...
the thing about LA LA land, is if you let it, it will kick your ass. But if you take a couple of shots to the chin, and you have your bad days, AND you keep pushin' towards you goal(s). Then you'll be just fine.
If I owned a club, I have 3 people that DEFINITELY aren't on the list...fear, doubt, and disbelief.


I'm out.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Bad Beats

Poker poker poker. It's hot right now. I play a couple of times a week, and consider myself to be pretty good. (The only reason I even started playing, was so I could be ready for celebrity poker =)
Anyway, the title of this blog is called bad beats. In poker, a bad beat is when you clearly have the favorable hand, but you end up losing to a less favorable hand. Example: You have been dealt pocket Aces (A very good hand in Texas Hold 'Em). Of course, you raise before the flop hoping to narrow your opponents down to 1 or 2. One person calls. Then the flop (three community cards) comes out A, 4, 6. The turn(the 4th community card) is a 5 and the river (the last community card) is a K. You flip over your Aces giving you 3 of a kind, but your opponent flips over 7, 8, which gives him a straight. Going into this hand, your pocket aces should win. But, in the end you lose almost all of your chips and you go home defeated wondering how you lost.
You don't have to play poker to get a bad beat. There are bad beats in life. Sometimes ish just doesn't go your way. Sometimes it just doesn't add up that your 'luck' could be that bad.
As an actor, they say sometimes you just have to get lucky to make it. I don't know if I believe in luck. I think if you are determined and a hard worker, the man upstairs gives you blessings, not luck.
How do you avoid a bad beat? You really can't. But what you can do is enjoy all of the good hands you get and don't stress over the bad hands. Because in the end, you'll get more good hands than you will bad beats.

Sometimes I wake up, already thinking of all of the things I have to get finished. Bills, agent/manager business, auditions, people I have to call etc. Before I even step out of the bed I'm either mad, frustrated or agitated at something. I couldn't sleep just last night because I was thinking about how much I had to get done. But I've learned that's a guaranteed way to piss your morning away. Instead, don't worry about every little thing in life. Things will be just fine. Things will get done, deadlines will be made, you will be prepared enough to make it.

Point of the story: Try and avoid the bad beats. But if you DO get a bad beat, which you sometimes will, hope that all your chips weren't in the pot and tell the dealer to deal you two more cards and keep playing.


Thursday, August 11, 2005

My Dad

When I was a young, my dad really only taught me three things.
1) "You got drivers, and you got drivers...I'm a driver". If you know me, that makes more sense.
2) Never beg for anything
3) When you look good, you feel good.

Not the regular fatherly teachings. But you know what, they make sense. And they still apply.

We'll touch on option C today.
I rolled over, hit the snooze button on my alarm and decided that today was going to be a good day. I threw on some nice slacks and a button up and stepped out to start my morning. Days like this, you just know that something good is going to happen. I'm making it happen.

A GREAT day. I found out I will be eligible to join the Screen Actors Guild (SAG) on Monday!!! I won some money playing poker, I finished yet another revision of my script. They say you haven't written a script until you've written it 10 times. And I think I'm on 8. But this one is goooood. I'm already desgning t-shirts, the roller coaster ride. It's hottness. =)

Umm...there was something else I had to tell you guys. Oh yeah, I think I'm going to start on my 2nd big project. Gotta go. H-U-S-T-L-E

"Do the Hustle...do do do da do da do do do, do do do da do da do do do"

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Monday, August 08, 2005

On The Set

So I was cast in this pretty big film coming out next year and we shot this past weekend. I'm a pianist, but was cast as a trombonist. Coming into it, I couldn't play the trombone that well. but after 16-17 hour days I think I got used to it.
But being on the set, filming and being with other actors and musicians...it's a good feeling. That's what I moved out here for. And every once in awhile, you get a taste of what you're going for. I was working with a great director, who knew exactly what we wanted. Which is also a plus. A leading actor who never complained about anything. And a cast who found time in between takes to smile and laugh. Ahh...

I just finished another version of my script. And it's GOOD! And no, I won't tell you what it's about, 'cause it's GREAT, and YOU might try to take it. So you'll just have to wait until it's out and pay 12 bucks to see it in a theater. You know what I'm going to do though. When my first big film comes out, I'm going back to St. Louis to the movie theater I used to sneak into all the time, and buy out the theater that is playing my movie. And everybody gets to watch it for free. See, I give back to the community. And I'm going to go, and buy a regular ticket, and watch it with everybody. But ain't nobody getting popcorn and all that, 'cause that's too expensive. You're on your own. You'll have to do like I did back in the day, go to Walgreen's and stack up with candy and soda and sneak it into the movies. You know what, I think I'm going to do ghetto things like that for life. There are 3 things I reFUSE to pay for. A) Barbeque Sauce from McDonald's (how are you gonna say condiments upon request, and then charge a pimp for the condiment) B) Paying to get into the Pointe (the old basketball gym that me and Gary used to hoop at when we were young and C) Popcorn/candy at a movie theater .

Holla at your boy. I'm out.
J Lee

Monday, August 01, 2005

Do What You Do

I get soooo excited when I get a good idea. And it doesn't take much for me to get excited, because I'm always coming up with good ideas. Sounds conceited, but I'm for real. I've really been on this, 'do it yourself' kick lately. Because, right now, I'd take a lot of smaller parts, just to get screen time. But I figure, get one of my screenplays, or short films up and running, and do it that way. I have connections for people who would be interested in producing. I've got actors who are always looking for quality projects, and I've got vision to make something entertaining. And even though money is important, it's not about money. It's about doing what you do. And right now, paid or unpaid, I'm trying to do what I do. If you're an actor...ACT. If you're a writer...WRITE. If you're a garbage man, be a garbage man. But be the best damn garbage man the world's ever seen.
I feel, that if you keep at something long enough, you're bound to hit. And, the more opportunities you give yourself, the more chances you have to be successful.

Yeah, that's what I'll do. I'll do what I do.
J Lee

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