Friday, December 09, 2005


I preach a lot about going after your dreams, and not taking no for an answer, and hustling and making it happen. But there is a flip side to that. Sometimes you have to listen and take advice. Sometimes you have to change your way of thinking to see a bigger and better picture.

You should never go through any trial or tribulation by yourself and not seek advice. Somewhere, somehow, and at sometime, somebody else has been through something similar to what you're going through. So don't think you have to do it all by yourself. Or that you have to prove anything to anybody. You have enough people that believe in you to make your dreams come true. Trust me. And sometimes, the people that believe in you come from unexpected places. But when they reach out to you and they say "I believe in you", trust that.

This is hard for me, because I am such a control person. I like the ball to be in my hands when it's clutch time. I need certainties. Why? Because, when it comes to a project I believe in or am involved in, I know what needs to be done and how to get it done. It's hard for me to let somebody else take control. Shit, I'm an aries. But! I'm also smart enough to know when I need help. Or when I need to let the steering wheel go and get in the backseat. Because you can't do it all by yourself.

....point of the story is...adapt.

"...if the route you've been using all your life ain't working right, take the scenic..."
-Jada Kiss

Monday, December 05, 2005

The Frat

Yesterday was my fraternity's founder's day. We're 99 years old. Alpha Phi Alpha is the nations 1st intercollegiate Greek letter fraternity established for African Americans. We were founded by men who recognized the need for a strong bond of brotherhood among African Americans in the year 1906 at Cornell University. Our principles are scholarship, fellowship, good character, and the uplifting of humanity.

"First of all
Servants of all
We shall transcend all"

I am a proud member of this fraternity. I have served as chapter president, social chair, parliamentarian, and almost every other position there was for my chapter. I created new programs, ideas, and social events. My brothers were my family. And I did this because I loved my frat. I loved what I did. I remember freshman year, when I saw the Alphas on the yard. I was astonished. They were what I wanted to be. Smart, intelligent, popular etc. And at that point, I was intimidated. I didn't know how to approach them. I didn't know how to speak to them. Because they were 'above' me in a sense. But I knew I wanted to be one of them
Sophomore year rolled around, and that nervous, hopeful freshman was gone. Now I was the "I'm going to JOIN this fraternity." Not only join the fraternity, but take it to a level that it had never been. I had met the brothers and they accepted me. I had to earn my way in, but the door was open. Now it was time to grind it out, go through what I needed to go through, and cross the sands. Then, after I was in, I did what I set out to do. I made Alpha the hottest thing since sliced bread. We won awards, chapter of the year, president of the year, outstanding name it. We won it. I can honestly say that I took the chapter to a different level. And I was good.

This entertainment industry is the same thing. It is a fraternity in a sense. There are the popular 'presidents' and cool kids. And there are the role players. I came out here with high hopes, but somewhat intimidated. I would see actors and writers on the big screen and writing great projects, and want that, but I had no idea how to speak to them. I was on a different level. After a few months of that, I changed my mindset. Instead of the freshman with wide eyes and hopefulness, I turned into the sophomore with great expectations. I then told myself not only am I going to be an actor, I'm going to be a writer/director/producer etc...and be one of the best ever. Becuase that's how my mind operates. I don't know how to go half speed. I don't know how to fit in. I don't know how to follow. I know how to lead. I know how to inspire. I know how to create.
So now I'm a sophomore in this entertainment fraternity. The doors are open. I'm at the beginning of my 'process'. I'm going through the fire. But trust me, when I emerge on the other side, I will be one of the best that ever did it.

J Lee
What fraternity are you trying to join?

Friday, December 02, 2005

Think about it

"I'm not a businessman, I'm a business, man"
-Jay Z

"what color would you be, if you didn't know what color you were"
-Random cat at Starbucks

"I got soul in me, that's older than you. I got my mans with me, he colder than you"
-Slum Village

"DAMN she's fine. I think I'll add the R-E in front of that, and see if she's D to get with a cat like me"
-Black Star

"My mind doesn't operate on a level of unsuccesful"
-J Lee

"I find that the harder I work, the luckier I get"
-past blog

"Don't let nobody rob you of your dreams"
-Carol Lee

"I'm raw, like 1 divided by four"
-Jay Z

Friday, November 25, 2005


Ladies and gentleman, J Lee has another great idea. Last night I couldn't even sleep I'm so excited about this one. I don't want to talk about it too much, 'cause I just want to do it. Don't talk about it, be about it. But the whole point of my blogspot is to share my experiences and let others know about the journey.

If this goes through like I think it can, this will be a large step in the right direction for me.

Oh yeah..MARK YOUR CALENDARS. Feb 2nd and 3rd. The unveiling....

J Lee

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

It's A Movement

It's a movement people and it's bigger than J Lee. We as people have the power to do great things. Why? Because we, also as people, put too much power into other people's hands. So the question is...with that power, what will you do with it?

You can do great things, bad things, or nothing, but you will do something. I feel that with my God given abilities, one day, I will be able to effect the masses. I will be able to use my 'celebrity' as a tool to effect thousands and thousands of people. Right now, actors such as Don Cheadle and Danny Glover are doing amazing work to help shape the future for our young black youth. I did Fight For Fame, and had a girl e-mail me from the Netherlands and said that I inspired her. And I haven't even really done shit. At one point in time, Michael Jordan was more popular world wide than Mickey Mouse. Now you tell me that's not power. And how many people has he inspired? How many people have hoop dreams to be the next MJ?

It's a movement. Do you know if you're going to be one of those people that sparks a movement? Man...ya'll don't feel me. I'm out....


Sunday, November 20, 2005

I ain't got it I ain't got it

Sometimes, you just don't have it in you. I'm feeling kinda sick right now but I gotta keep pressing on. I'm working on a couple of spec scripts right now. Then, as far as writing goes, I'll have 2 features finished, 3 features started, a television show, and 2 spec scripts. And not to mention about 1000000 ideas. Anyway, just something I gotta work on. So my next move is to get these specs finished. Okay, that's it. I ain't got nothing else to talk about. Okay? Okay!

Oh yeah, mark your calendars. Feb 2nd and 3rd. J Lee's 1 man show comes to LA.

Holla at your boy.

J " Damn, I didn't know you knew how to do that too" Lee

Sunday, November 13, 2005

The one

I might be the most demanding person I know. I think for me to be in this industry, I'm asking a lot of a woman. I'm asking for someone who is understanding, thoughtful, supportive, patient, and strong. Because I'm not going to lie, I'm a difficult person to be with. I'm busy, strong willed, determined, stubborn, and damn near moody. But I was blessed with someone who will put up with all my flaws and still love me for who I am. My baby girl, Carrie, AKA Booski.

I've said this before, but besides my mom, she is probably the most supportive person in my life. If I ever feel down or feel like I can't do it, she's right there to tell me I can. To tell me that I am a strong black man who will leave a mark on this world. And not only that, but she's got her own goals and aspirations, which I respect. But she's my opposite. My balance. Everyone needs balance in life, and I have that. And when you have that balance, and that person in your life, sometimes you have to let them know that their appreciated and loved. 'Cause if you don't, somebody else will. And I don't want that. lol. So baby girl, I love you, and I'm thankful that you're in my life. And thanks for putting me on to good food, and to enjoy the struggle. Because without struggle, there is no progress.

"She's WON-Der-FULLL"

Holla at your boy.

J Lee
C Lee
"c'mon L!"

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Sunday, November 06, 2005

The Karate Kid

Man, "The Karate Kid" might be one of the best movies EVER. It was just a good movie all around. No big explosions and cool car chases. Just some great dialogue, good music, and some cheesy fights. But the movie was tight.

"Walk on road hmm...walk right side. Safe. Walk left side. Safe. Walk middle, sooner or later you get squished just like grape."

"In karate, you same thing. Either you do karate. Yes. Or you do karate. No. You karate do guess so...squish just like grape"

-Mr. Miyagi

That's deep. Now just in case you missed the important life lesson in these words, I'll break it down for you. You substitute the word 'life' for 'karate' and what do you have? Either you do something 100% or don't do it at all, 'cause doing it halfway doesn't work. Mr. Miyagi taught me that. I want you to either love my films or hate 'em. But I don't want, "it was okay". Because what is 'okay'? Okay is just good enough to forget in a week. LOVE or HATE, you remember that. Think of the last movie you LOVED. The last PERSON you loved. Think of the last person you HATED. Now think of the last person who you kind of dated but don't really remember. You can keep that. I don't want to live in the gray area. I'm trying to do 'Karate YES!" 'cause I ain't trying to get squished like a grape. No sir.
And yes, you can quote me on that. "J Lee is not trying to get squished like a grape"

I'm out, I'm about to watch Daniel son paint the fence.

J Lee

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

You've Got To Know, That You Know, That You Know

Your path is being set right now. As we speak, you are doing something that you are supposed to be doing in order to get you somewhere that you are supposed to be getting. Think about it. How many people in your life have you met, that turned out to be a best friend, an enemy, or a co-worker, or something. How many times have you encountered somebody from your past and sparked a new relationship. There are many times in my life, where I look back and wonder, had I NOT been in that place at that point in time at that point in my life, would I be the man I am today. Dig this, the only reason I'm writing THIS blog right now, is because I met some dude at a Mazda dealership in Bloomington, IN 2 years ago. Yep. And that meeting had been planned. Destined.

My point is, you've got to have a goal. You've got to have a clear cut thing that you strive towards. When you do, then all of a sudden, your actions and the people you meet, and the places you go, will all ultimately lead to you reaching your goal. You'll find yourself meeting people that can help you. People that will support you. And even people that will knock you down and hate on you, just to make you stronger. But if you don't have a goal. When the doors are opened for you, and you get that chance to meet the people you're supposed to meet, you won't be ready to step through them. And who knows when the next time you'll get that opportunity to meet that person who introduced you to that person who is now your future husband/wife? It may be a hard concept to grasp but I believe it's true.

I'm riding a wave people. I'm riding it until I'm washed on the shore of my destiny and I've got the sand of success all over my face. And I'll turn over and let the sun hit my face and smile. And thank God. And probably cry tears of joy. Because I know that I know that I know...I'm headed for greatness.

J Lee

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

PHAT ALBERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, first of all, I would like to say that ALBERT PUJOLS is CLUTCH! Top of the 9th, 2 outs, 1 out away from MISSING THE WORLD SERIES, down by 2, and ALBERT blasts a 3 run homer out to right field! Man, it shut the entire houston stadium up. I was in the Phoenix airport at the time (flying home from St. Louis) and went crazy. I was giving people high fives, chest bumps and all. You would have thought I hit the homer.
That's clutch baby. That's hitting the last shot before the buzzer sounds, that's sliding into your house just before curfew. That's...well you get it.

Now, on to other news in the crazy world of J Lee. I HATE liars. hate 'em. Wish I could line them all up in a row, and slap each and every one of them in the face. And then go BACK down the line, and slap them again with the back of my hand. I'm dealing with someone right now, who is just a flat out liar. It's one thing to bend the truth. Or even lie, but once you're caught, at least give up. No. This cat will lie right to your face, and KNOW he's wrong. I'm just waiting for his nose to start growing. Then I'll slap that too. But it's all good. Because one monkey don't stop the show. And yes, it's a minor set back to J that this liar is holding up some very important things for me, but it's all good. 'Cause when I look back at it, I'm clutch. I might strike out for 8 straight innings. But when it COUNTs, I'm hitting that bitch over the FENCE! Ya undadig?

Now, if you are an actor/musician/writer just starting out, you need to read this. Never, NEVER do any work without knowing exactly what you are getting paid. Make sure you double check your written contract BEFORE work begins. Not after. Make sure everything is 'A okay' and then make it happen. But you must always watch your back out here. Because there are sharks. And sharks have teeth. Real sharp teeth. Anyway, point being, make sure you watch yourself and don't get played by people who try to get over on you.

Friday, October 07, 2005


"I'll be there in 5 minutes, Five hours later...I'll be there in 5 minutes"
-Kanye West

I'm going back to St. Louis next weekend. It's been too long since I've been back to visit my family. I won't be able to go back for Christmas or Thanksgiving, so this is kind of like my holiday vacation. My nephew Darreon has his big homecoming football game that Friday. It's funny, cause it feels like yesterday I was back at that same school dancing in a circle and copping feels with my date in the gymnasium. Darreon...that dude i's like my son/brother and I want to show him some support. James, his little brother and my other nephew, will be there before I know it. And I'll be that guy, calling the school, checking up on him, going back for HIS big game/concert/showcase/whatever it is. I'll be there.

Today is also my Dad's birthday. October 7th. My pops has seen a lot in his years. He's from Arkansas. I get my 'gift of gab' and my persistent nature from my mom, but I get my laid back, nonchalant, cool ass walk from my dad. I am a perfect mix of my parents. It's damn near scary. But this blog is for my dad.

My dad lived in the city of St. Louis, north side. My mom moved us out to the county where she thought I could get a better education. My pops never liked the county, but he moved anyway. After a while, things just didn't work out and he went back to the city. But I would still see him every weekend. And now that I'm an adult, I can honestly attribute my love for film to my dad. He'd pick me up Saturday morning in his Ford Crowne Victoria. Dark blue leather seats with the pine tree smell. If I wore shorts in the summer, those damn seats would burn my legs. We would go straight to a movie. We watched a movie a week. Action, drama, comedies, it didn't matter. I just loved the movies. Then afterwards, we'd go to Hardees and get a box of fried chicken. Some you probably don't remember when Hardees used to sell fried chicken. And one Saturday, my dad taught me something I'd never forget. He used to give me a $20 bill for the food. And of course, there was always change. I'd give him his change back, and he'd immediately say "keep it". After 3 or 4 weeks of this, one day I came back and didn't offer him any change. I just knew he was going to say "keep it". Instead, my dad said "where's my change?" As I slowly took his money out of my pocket, I said ."Well, aren't you going to give it to me anyway?" He simply replied "That's not your money. If I want to give it to you, then I will. But don't just expect it". I said "please dad, can't I just have the money..." And he cut me off by saying "Don't beg. Never beg for anything" And that was that. I don't even know if he was trying to teach me a lesson. But he did. My dad might not be the most educated man, bookwise, but he knew a lot. He knew enough to know that if you ask somebody for something, and they say no, then you find another way to get it. Not take no for an answer.

So today is his b-day. I'll see him next week when I get in town, and maybe we'll go out and see a movie and eat some fried chicken. This time, it's on me. And next time, hopefully the next movie we see together will be starring me.

J Lee

Monday, September 26, 2005

Thank You, and You, and YOU

This isn't really a blog, but more of a shot out list for all of the people that have showed me love throughout my life and career. If I forget somebody, it wasn't on purpose.

First, I gotta say thanks to God for even letting me walk on this earth. He has given me drive and talent and I just hope I do everything I can with them.

My moms. I don't think I could ask for a better mom. She brought me up tough but has always been in my corner. If you know me, I get my stubborness and my drive from her. I started piano lessons at the age of 3, and between 3-18 my mother never missed a lesson. Even when I got my license and started driving, she still drove me. Sat in the other room, and listened to every note. That's support.

Sister Alice. My high school piano teacher. She is a nun at The Sisters Of Loretto Convent in St. Louis and basically like my second mother. When I went went away to college who was in the van? Me, my mom....and Sister Alice.

My family. Pop, Becky, Damonte, Loretta, Darreon, James, Neimen, Jayar and Corwin, uncle Turtle, Dale, Diddy, Donny and the rest of the Jackson Family. And to all of my family members that have passed away. I know you're still looking out for me.

My boys. The cats I used to run wild with when I was a youngster. Man, sometimes I think back at some of the stuff we used to do, and I can't believe it. Evan, Gary, Dee, Kev, K.O., Neimen (again), Brandon. Everybody from the 314 and 636. The Lankfords. Don't know how I would have graduated without them. Mr. Fields, for teaching me a lot about life and not even knowing it. All my hoopers back at the Pointe and Holloway. Miss running the courts. Tom - all time leading scorer at the pointe, John - ugliest 3 pointer, Toby - self proclaimed veteran, and the rest. Also, Gary your sister. Man, she was FINE! I can't lie, we used to all love spending the night over at your crib. John Zeibelman AKA Powder. If anybody knows powder, I guarantee you're smiling right now. Carolyn Carr, who started "The Friends of Jason Lee" fund. They funded all of my trips when I had to compete or perform.

My Booski, Carrie. She's been with me through the good and the bad. From college at IU to LA. She's been in my corner and besides my mom, is the most supportive of my life. I'm blessed to have you in my life.

My bruhs. Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity, Inc. Gamma Eta chapter. But particularly R.E.D.E.M.P.T.I.O.N. We all wen through the trenches together and came out on top. Kevin, Brandon, Marshawn, and Joel. To my older bruhs, Jon B, Mike B, Al, Eric, Big Reg, Shorty...I learned a lot from you cats. You represented what Alpha was all about. Everybody else from 4 E.L.E.M.E.N.T.S to T.E.S.T.I.M.O.N.Y. Hold high the light.

540!! The best roomates I could ask for. Jamie, Marcus, and Joel. Better known as the moolies. Mook Bailey, Mookus, and Joelseph Mookthiri. Love ya'll dudes. 540 Enterprises on the rise. Like Jamie used to say "the boat is sailing, ya'll better get on board.". And my favorite "We're making a recipe for Cheesecake. Cheese - cake"

Vianney high school. Even though I hated being at school half of the time, I still have to show love to the people who made the school bareable. I think I got into 3 fights in my first 2 years of school. Coach Mohr, Coach Ripplinger, Coach Walsh (both of 'em) Mr. Farrel, Mr. Neyer (who's classed I somehow slacked in the most. Band class. Ironic huh. Sorry)and Mr. Rhame (who helped me want to be an actor). All my old track and basketball teamates. Soon as I get some money, Vianney is getting a new auditorium, hurdles and some new scholarships for minority students. Get my picture ready for that hall of fame.

My roomate Badal. AKA Biddy Bad Ass. Hollywood, watch out for this man to be a major star. Bad boys for life. My LA friends and family who have been cool with me since I got here. Jillian, Jennifer, Lauretha, Dave Neustadter who actually convinced me that I was a writer. My acting coach Stuart Robinson. The entire Family Guy staff. Seth, Chris, Alex, Mike Henry, Barker, and Weitzman. Fusfeld...holla at your boy. My consultant K Biggs. Get your cane ready for the Oscars. Spence, Shawn "What the f*** did you just say" Lo Faz, K Peezy, Krentzshaw, and the newest addition to the family guy family Alexandra AKA - AJ. Barrios, who hooked up my demo reel. Hollywood, Mike D! Peanut Butter and J Lee. It's not over yet Mike. Ant Banks, Edu, also known as Denzel Washington's stunt double. McKenna, Natch and all my other poker buddies. I'm just getting ready for celebrity poker. My writing partner, Tom AKA Tommy Bahamy, AKA Rex Chapman. Go see Medusa. Katie B and Kyle for reading my blog regularly.

And anybody else that has met me and believes in me as much as I do. What else could I ask for. Thanks. If I forgot you, blame my head not my heart.

J Lee.

Thursday, September 22, 2005


Things are never so bad that they can't be worse, and never so good that they can't be better.
My mom told me that.

Now now now now now. I want my stuff now. I want rewards now. Pay me, cast me, buy my scripts, listen to my Sometimes, the stuff you work for doesn't pay off until later on. Around the corner. But we can't see what's around the corner. All we can do is keep on doing what we do. And when we do get around the corner, which we will, you have to breath easy and enjoy it. Because once you round one corner, you'll already be thinking about what's around the next.

"show me a satisfied man, and I'll show you a failure"

Sometimes I feel I'm not doing enough, or that I could be doing better. But you know what, that's okay. Because complacency isn't an option in my book. I feel I can always be doing better. There are 24 hours in a day, and that's the same amount of time every other great person in this world has.

"I find that the harder I work, the more luck I seem to have."
- Thomas Jefferson (1743-1826)

Anyway, I guess I kind of went off on a tangent.

In other news, I just got back new headshots and postcards. And 'luckily' for me =) , a co-worker of mine helped me out with my demo reel. So now I'm going to send off another huge mailing. Throw some bait into the water and see who bites. But it's good bait, not that fake gummy worm bait, nah. I'm throwing out crusted chicken romano with shrimp and basil. And wine. Good bait. People should bite that. BITE MY BAIT! hahaha

All you gotta do is get on board. J Lee's ship is sailing, with or without half of the people in this industry. But, if I were them, I'd get on board now. Cause stock is at the lowest it's ever gonna be for J Lee.

I know I talk a lot of ish, but I expect a lot of ish. My mom used to tell me, 'claim it'. If you want something in life, claim it. And tell yourself everyday. Remind yourself of that goal, and I gurantee you'll reach it. Claim it. Plant your seed, and water it everyday. It'll grow. And if it doesn't, stomp that bitch out and plant another one.

I'm OUT!
J Lee

Tuesday, September 13, 2005


You know what I hate? I hate the question..."what do you do". In LA, you are BOUND to hear that question all of the time. And it's such a weird question. You meet somebody in a bar or club or restaurant, and one of the first questions they ask you is what do you do. Coming from St. Louis, when you met somebody, it didn't matter what they did. If you were cool, then you were cool. It didn't matter what your profession was. But here, people need other people to succeed. And I wish relationships and friendships were always built on basic principles...but really it's about what can that person do for you.

Anyway, for me that question is hard to answer. I moved to LA to pursue a career in the entertainment industry. I am an actor, writer, musician, producer, how do I answer that question. I can't really put what I do into one category. Why should I? If you are talented at more than one thing, why not go for them all. "Never be limited by your circumstances, only by your imagination." My mother used to tell me that all of the time. And you know what...I believed her. I use to always wonder how I would combine all of my talents. But now that I live in LA, and have been here, I realize that my greater talent is not just acting, or music or whatever. It's creating and entertaining.

So when somebody asks me, "what do I do" ...I figure the easiest way to answer that is "I'm talking to you. What do you do?"
Point of the story, think big. Don't limit yourself. You can do whatever you want to do in life, all you gotta do is plan your work and work your plan. Holla


Shot out to the brothers of Alpha Phi Alpha, Gamma Eta Chapter

#2 Frosty
Fall '00

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

The show I work for, Family Guy, plays in this entertainment softball league every year. I play. I'm an infielder - second base, shortstop. Ya know. And we got our butts whooped yesterday and I realized, even in soft pitch softball, I hate losing. The other team was talking trash too.
I'm a real competitive cat. And once this other team started talking crazy, it kinda bothered me. Can you believe that? I was ready to charge the mound, cause their pitcher was striking our players out.

I don't know what I'm talking about. I need to get some post-cards made up and send that out with my demo reel. Stop playing with this industry and go ahead and take it over. Yep.
That's it people. Nothing more, nothing less. Just need to make it happen.


Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

One of those days

Yeah folks. I've officially had one of those days. Not really a bad day, but just not even close to a good one. I'm annoyed, tired, and the St. Louis Cardinals are losing .

I'm the kind of person who always has to be doing something. If I don't, I feel like I'm not giving my all. Always writing, always finding ways to advance my career, always on the go go go go go. And today, in the midst of all my going and wondering and wishing and planning and hoping, I forgot to smile. I forgot to enjoy my day. I'm always like...things will happen when they're supposed to happen. But today I kinda forgot that and I let LA wear down on me.

If you're a part of this industry, you know what I'm talking about. This industry will try to get to you. You're either too busy or not busy enough. You are constantly looking for the next thing. Nobody comes out to LA to be the 175th greatest actor of all time. Or to get their project picked up and taken straight to DVD. People come out here with big hopes and dreams. To be the best. The reality of it is, that a lot of people will never get to that level of satisfaction. Not happiness, but satisfaction. Because you always want more. Same thing in sports, business, life. Most people want more. People are getting on Terrell Owens' case because he is trying to re-work his contract. He wants more. Some people would be happy with a seven-year, $48.97 million deal. But he wants more. And why not? People are getting that kind of money, why can't he? The owners of these football teams are bringing in HUNDREDS of MILLIONS. Nobody renegotiates those contracts. I'VE DIGRESSED!!

My point is...
the thing about LA LA land, is if you let it, it will kick your ass. But if you take a couple of shots to the chin, and you have your bad days, AND you keep pushin' towards you goal(s). Then you'll be just fine.
If I owned a club, I have 3 people that DEFINITELY aren't on the list...fear, doubt, and disbelief.


I'm out.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Bad Beats

Poker poker poker. It's hot right now. I play a couple of times a week, and consider myself to be pretty good. (The only reason I even started playing, was so I could be ready for celebrity poker =)
Anyway, the title of this blog is called bad beats. In poker, a bad beat is when you clearly have the favorable hand, but you end up losing to a less favorable hand. Example: You have been dealt pocket Aces (A very good hand in Texas Hold 'Em). Of course, you raise before the flop hoping to narrow your opponents down to 1 or 2. One person calls. Then the flop (three community cards) comes out A, 4, 6. The turn(the 4th community card) is a 5 and the river (the last community card) is a K. You flip over your Aces giving you 3 of a kind, but your opponent flips over 7, 8, which gives him a straight. Going into this hand, your pocket aces should win. But, in the end you lose almost all of your chips and you go home defeated wondering how you lost.
You don't have to play poker to get a bad beat. There are bad beats in life. Sometimes ish just doesn't go your way. Sometimes it just doesn't add up that your 'luck' could be that bad.
As an actor, they say sometimes you just have to get lucky to make it. I don't know if I believe in luck. I think if you are determined and a hard worker, the man upstairs gives you blessings, not luck.
How do you avoid a bad beat? You really can't. But what you can do is enjoy all of the good hands you get and don't stress over the bad hands. Because in the end, you'll get more good hands than you will bad beats.

Sometimes I wake up, already thinking of all of the things I have to get finished. Bills, agent/manager business, auditions, people I have to call etc. Before I even step out of the bed I'm either mad, frustrated or agitated at something. I couldn't sleep just last night because I was thinking about how much I had to get done. But I've learned that's a guaranteed way to piss your morning away. Instead, don't worry about every little thing in life. Things will be just fine. Things will get done, deadlines will be made, you will be prepared enough to make it.

Point of the story: Try and avoid the bad beats. But if you DO get a bad beat, which you sometimes will, hope that all your chips weren't in the pot and tell the dealer to deal you two more cards and keep playing.


Thursday, August 11, 2005

My Dad

When I was a young, my dad really only taught me three things.
1) "You got drivers, and you got drivers...I'm a driver". If you know me, that makes more sense.
2) Never beg for anything
3) When you look good, you feel good.

Not the regular fatherly teachings. But you know what, they make sense. And they still apply.

We'll touch on option C today.
I rolled over, hit the snooze button on my alarm and decided that today was going to be a good day. I threw on some nice slacks and a button up and stepped out to start my morning. Days like this, you just know that something good is going to happen. I'm making it happen.

A GREAT day. I found out I will be eligible to join the Screen Actors Guild (SAG) on Monday!!! I won some money playing poker, I finished yet another revision of my script. They say you haven't written a script until you've written it 10 times. And I think I'm on 8. But this one is goooood. I'm already desgning t-shirts, the roller coaster ride. It's hottness. =)

Umm...there was something else I had to tell you guys. Oh yeah, I think I'm going to start on my 2nd big project. Gotta go. H-U-S-T-L-E

"Do the do do da do da do do do, do do do da do da do do do"

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Monday, August 08, 2005

On The Set

So I was cast in this pretty big film coming out next year and we shot this past weekend. I'm a pianist, but was cast as a trombonist. Coming into it, I couldn't play the trombone that well. but after 16-17 hour days I think I got used to it.
But being on the set, filming and being with other actors and's a good feeling. That's what I moved out here for. And every once in awhile, you get a taste of what you're going for. I was working with a great director, who knew exactly what we wanted. Which is also a plus. A leading actor who never complained about anything. And a cast who found time in between takes to smile and laugh. Ahh...

I just finished another version of my script. And it's GOOD! And no, I won't tell you what it's about, 'cause it's GREAT, and YOU might try to take it. So you'll just have to wait until it's out and pay 12 bucks to see it in a theater. You know what I'm going to do though. When my first big film comes out, I'm going back to St. Louis to the movie theater I used to sneak into all the time, and buy out the theater that is playing my movie. And everybody gets to watch it for free. See, I give back to the community. And I'm going to go, and buy a regular ticket, and watch it with everybody. But ain't nobody getting popcorn and all that, 'cause that's too expensive. You're on your own. You'll have to do like I did back in the day, go to Walgreen's and stack up with candy and soda and sneak it into the movies. You know what, I think I'm going to do ghetto things like that for life. There are 3 things I reFUSE to pay for. A) Barbeque Sauce from McDonald's (how are you gonna say condiments upon request, and then charge a pimp for the condiment) B) Paying to get into the Pointe (the old basketball gym that me and Gary used to hoop at when we were young and C) Popcorn/candy at a movie theater .

Holla at your boy. I'm out.
J Lee

Monday, August 01, 2005

Do What You Do

I get soooo excited when I get a good idea. And it doesn't take much for me to get excited, because I'm always coming up with good ideas. Sounds conceited, but I'm for real. I've really been on this, 'do it yourself' kick lately. Because, right now, I'd take a lot of smaller parts, just to get screen time. But I figure, get one of my screenplays, or short films up and running, and do it that way. I have connections for people who would be interested in producing. I've got actors who are always looking for quality projects, and I've got vision to make something entertaining. And even though money is important, it's not about money. It's about doing what you do. And right now, paid or unpaid, I'm trying to do what I do. If you're an actor...ACT. If you're a writer...WRITE. If you're a garbage man, be a garbage man. But be the best damn garbage man the world's ever seen.
I feel, that if you keep at something long enough, you're bound to hit. And, the more opportunities you give yourself, the more chances you have to be successful.

Yeah, that's what I'll do. I'll do what I do.
J Lee

Friday, July 29, 2005

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If there's one thing that I can't stand in would have to be that I hate being misunderstood. Hate is an understatement. It tears up my insides. I can't function. I feel I am the type of person who always, looks out for others. I'm not perfect by any means, but I feel I do a pretty decent job of thinking of others. Where I fall into problems, is I think of TOO many others. And somehow at the end of the day, instead of J Lee making everybody happy, J Lee falls short.
Example: Let's say my boy Gary (G Pheezy, St. Louis for life ) wants to go play basketball at 6pm. Now, let's say I get a call from my boy Dee (also St. Louis for life) , who wants to go out for dinner at like..7:30pm. Instead of saying either a) G, can't play ball today. I have something to do. Or b) Dee, I can't go to dinner, because I have something to do. I to try and make everybody happy. I tell Gary, alright. I'll hoop. But in my mind, I'm like, I can only hoop for 45 minutes. (which is never enough time). Then I tell Dee that I can meet him for dinner at 7:30. (which in reality, I'll be about 15 minutes late.) I go play ball, end up running over, because we keep winning and I don't want to mess up the team. But I still leave early, and Gary's like "well why'd you come if you were only going to stay for 3 games?" I leave, rush home to shower. (It's 7:25pm now) and then rush to the restaurant to meet D. Get there at 7:47pm, and he's like..."what took you so long? If you couldn't come at 7:30pm, you should have told me". Then at the end of the night, I reflect back on where the night went wrong.
But I realized, it's impossible to make everybody happy. Sometimes I think it's nothing but irnoy, that I am an actor, and I care so much about how I'm portrayed. But the media controls that, so I will have no real strong hand in how I'm understood..or misunderstood. I'll be undermistood,
Moral of the story...i dunno. Just had a looong day and wanted to vent. Holla.

J Lee...out!

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Monday, July 25, 2005

Hustle and Flow

I went to see Hustle and Flow this past weekend. First, let me say, that Terrance Howard may be one of the most underrated actors out there. He's been doing his thing for years. Over 15 of 'em. 15 years, and he's just now getting the recognition he deserves. Ask yourself. Could you do something for 15 years, without getting proper recognition? 15 years, knowing that you're getting passed over for promotions you deserve...raises you deserve...? A lot of people couldn't.
That's heart. That's guts. That's talent. I read an article with him in it the other day, and he said ""...I work to pay the bills, not to listen to the hype. I've been the next big thing in this business for a few years. It's funny to me when I hear it now, because I know the way it works. I'm not confused."

That's a man who knew his ship was gonna come in. Now, you can't FIND a movie trailor without T.H. in it. And not only that, but quality films. Much props to my man, cause 15 years is a long time, to average 25 ppg, 8 rebounds, and 6 assists, and never be voted to an all star game.

Holla at your boy, and you might have to holla loud...'cause I think I hear a ship coming.

J Lee

Monday, July 18, 2005

Passion Of The Craft

If you sat down and thought about it...why would anybody want to get into the entertainment industry? There are way more actors/writers/producers than there are jobs. The time between jobs is often so long, that most of us have to go on unemployment. With SAG having roughly 100,000 members, only about 50 are considered stars? Now, after processing all that info, you have to ask yourself...WHY? Well, I'll give you my opinion and tell you what I think, 'cause this is my blog and I can do that.

1) People just want to be on TV. Everyone wants to be accepted, recognized, and liked. So what better way to be accepted, recognized, and liked, than to go through a medium that reaches the masses. You see it when you watch news or sports anchors give live reports, and everybody in the background crowds around him/her just to get on TV. That's why these reality shows are so popular. BUT...people are coming to LA and leaving LA by the bus loads.

A quote that really helps me is...'status is often the enemy to success'...follow me?

2) Passion. If you're passionate about something, you'll do whatever it takes to accomplish your goal. And I'm not talking about really liking something. Nah, I'm talking about having something deep down in your gut, in your being. Like, this thirst you have will never be quenched until you have done this one passionate thing. And when you're that passionate about something, then you take statistics, and probabilty and all those other warnings, and you throw them out of the window. Because you don't give a shit about that. All you care about is accomplishing that goal. That's passion.

So, my passion is acting. passion is bigger than that. My calling is bigger than that. I am an entertainer. Be it acting, writing, music, producing, directing...I am here to entertain people. And that is what I will do. And I will not stop, until that thirst has been quenched. So be entertained by this blog damnit. 'Cause I'm thirsty.

-I'm J Lee and I approve this message.

Monday, July 11, 2005

Back At It

So I'm BACK in LA from a small little vacation. I traveled to Indianapolis and made a stop through my hometown St. Louis. Saw the family and old friends. MAN, I tell you, it feels good to be back around people who really know and appreciate you. But being away, I came to the conclusion that time moves faster in LA. It is a proven, J Lee scientific fact. I was gone for a week - midwest time, and it felt like a month - LA time. I just knew, I missed 100 auditions for 100 films that I would have won 100 awards for.
But it's all good, cause J Lee, AKA The Next Big Thing In Hollywood, is back and on the grind once again. I've been doing some reasearch, and I think the next thing I will tackle are these casting director workshops. much to do, so much to do. Holla at your BOY!

"I'm out here on the grind, trying to get a lil change, my hustlas in the street trying to get a lil fame..."

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Jason Lee vs J Lee's 2 days after I saw myself on Fight For Fame, and I realized I need to redefine my HOOK. What I mean by hook is, what it is that makes me stand out from the crowd. Why me?
There are a few different sides of me, but the main two are Jason Lee and J Lee. Jason Lee is the guy you saw on the show. The professional, young black man who's well spoken and respectable. J Lee is the guy who was cast for the show. Personal, funny, confident, loveable, and unforgettable. Growing up as a young black kid in St. Louis, playing classical music, I was thrusted into a professional world. Meetings, interviews etc...Jason Lee was always "well spoken" and professional. I went away to college, became president of my fraternity. Again, professional. Leader. I've always had those qualities. But J Lee is the athelte who never quits. The guy on the track who is last in the blocks and first across the tape. The point guard who, even though down by 20 with under 1 min. left, still talks trash to the other team and thinks he can bring his team back. The guy who goes out and ends up meeting everybody in the bar. The guy who you just want to talk to and be around. When you meet me, those are the things that stick out.
Now, being in LA, I've adjusted to a few things. When I first got here, I was very green. Very new. I stressed being a 'fresh new face with talent'. But who in LA is NOT going to say that. After 3 weeks here, I was old news. In my mind, Jason Lee is the man who conducts business (meetings, interviews etc.) J Lee is the talent once the production begins. Slowly but surely, I'm starting to realize that the J Lee that everybody loves, is the J Lee who needs to shine a little more. My hook? How about this for a hook. I have the likeability of a Will Smith, the talent of a Don Cheadle, and the star power of a Denzel Washington. Now that's a hook. But, now that I said it, I have to back it up. Hmmm.. I like challenges.
Round 1: J Lee = 1 Jason Lee = 0

Monday, June 27, 2005

Fight For Fame

So last night, I was on the show "Fight For Fame". I sent out evites, cards, headshots and resumes for people to come over and watch it at my crib. I set up my poker table, started raking in the chips and everybody was having a good time. THEN, 10:00pm rolls around and we turn it to the channel....and THE SHOW ISN'T EVEN ON. Somehow, I recorded HALF of the east coast feed, which came on at 7pm, and the 10pm show was The Gastinau Girls. What kinda ish is that? So I'm sitting around, waiting for the show to come on, looking suspect, watching some half naked women on the tube. PISSED.
Oh well. I've been getting good responses back from the people that did watch the show.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Don't Get Slapped

Made a drop to casting directors last night. Also, I'm going to smack LA Casting. Waiting all day to upload my photos. Grrr.~Have you ever just wanted to slap the taste out of somebody's mouth? That's a funny cliche phrase. Slap the TASTE out of your mouth! You'd have to slap somebody kinda hard to do that. But I think I could. Don't test me LA Casting. DON'T TEST ME!

The Hustle

Hustle:(v) To act aggressively, especially in business dealings/To gain by energetic effort.The hustle is what I call it. Out here, you have to hustle on a daily basis. Doesn't matter if you're an actor, business man/woman, doctor, teacher. Whatever. You have to hustle to stay on top, otherwise, you'll get left at the bottom. And you have to have more than one hustle. A-Z! In closing, I will leave you with the words that an old wise man once said - "you can't knock the hustle" (Jay-Z).

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What the hell is a BLOG?

So, this is my first official blog, but what the hell is a blog anyway? I'm halfway decent around a computer, and I still don't know why they call it a blog. Well, I guess I know. It's short for Web Log. But I just don't like that word. Why not call it a post place or something useful. But the word blog is just silly anyway. Blog. It sounds like something you get in your nose after you get sick. Blog. I'm OUT!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005


Today, I'm feeling overwhelmed. I have acting class tonight. Tuesdays are good days. Even when I have a bad day, I know I can forget about all that stuff and be in my own world. Even if it is only for 3 1/2 hours.-Signed up with LA casting now after putting it off for some unknown reason.

Monday, June 20, 2005

Doesn't Add Up

Why is it, that when you have bad get a higher interest rate? Obviously I didn't have the money to pay the other people, so you're just making this harder on yourself. Maybe if my payment was lower, I could pay my bills on time. Just a thought. =)

About Me

Just a guy trying to put his stamp on the world. Everything else you need to know about me, will probably be in this blog.